2017 – The Year of the Rainbow

I write this with fireworks erupting in the background illuminating the night sky turning it into a spectacular display of colours, like a million rainbows dancing to their own melody.

2017 has been a year that not only brings tears to my eyes but smile to my lips too. It’s the year that I was blessed with my Rainbow baby, my beautiful little girl, my new best friend who entered my life to change it forever – sounds very cheesy, doesn’t  it?

But it’s true!

My life will never be the same again, I will never be the same woman I was a year ago and do you know what? I don’t want it to be. Some people are scared of change and to an extent I was too, I didn’t know the A to Z of babies and I still don’t because no matter how many ‘handbooks’ and ‘guides’ you read or attend classes during your pregnancy or the days of ‘planning parenthood’ there is absolutely nothing out there that prepares you for what’s coming.

Just imagine jumping into an ocean and not knowing how to swim – I’m scaring you now aren’t I? You are flailing your arms about screaming for help and then finally a lifeguard comes to your rescue.

In the world of parents (I say parent instead of mummies, don’t want to offend the daddy bloggers out there!) and babies, the lifeguard that comes to our rescue is actually the little human being we’ve brought into this world.

I could not have gotten through each day of 2017 if it weren’t for my little girl, even before she was born she had become my motivation to carry on (despite the several trips to triage!). When I’d feel like a complete failure (many times!) she’d be the one to help me think differently, encouraging me to look forward.

2017 has definitely been a big learning curve in my life. Each day was no doubt a challenge, after all, there is this responsibility of a helpless human being on us who relies on us for everything – our responsibility to nurture this beautiful being and help him or her to grow and forever trying to be the perfect Mum or Dad, not realising that to these little humans we are absolutely perfect already.

As my now 10.5 month old was growing this year I was growing up too and I know that I’ll continue to grow with her because that’s what parenting truly is, you’re just trying to find your feet in this new world.

I had been wanting to start a blog for a long time, I have always had a passion for writing and finally thought why not combine the two loves of my life – being a Mum and writing!

Everything you read on this blog isn’t going to depict a meadow of flowers, it will be reality, mine, yours, our reality. There are ups and downs, some hiccups along the way, moments to cry over, moments to laugh and smile about but the thing is…I wouldn’t change it for the world even if you said you’d give me a million pounds, I wouldn’t.

Now I better stop writing and get to sleep whilst I can! Yes, I am not staying up to watch the Big Ben go dong at midnight because if there is one thing that this year has taught me – sleep is very precious!

Happy New Year everyone!

Rainbow Baby:- a baby born following the loss of another.